Alright so once again I have neglected to update my journal for a bit. So I decided (right now, 1:42 AM) to update. Yaay for random decisions.

As you may or may not have noticed if you actually look at my submissions, I've got a lot more poems up lately, as well as more pictures. I'm working on photography more right now than my poetry, but the poems come no matter if I will them too or not, and I still love them. But I have a photography project right now. Next year, hopefully in March or April, a local shop will be featuring my photography in their shop, with some of my prints up for sale, and a short article of information about me to go up with them. This will be posted about a week before 'First Friday'. I'm really excited for this and hope it will lead to earning some money as well as bringing up interest in my photography. So I've been trying to take a lot of pictures lately, and unfortunately since the best will be going into prints for spring, they wont be on here. But I'll try and put up a taste of the stuff I am doing for those of you who actually watch my page. ^__^

So that's my update art-wise. Not much, but certainly exciting. Home-wise, things are also going fairly decent. I've been working a lot lately, which is how I can afford to get prints of my art to post in the shop in the first place. Haha. I'm getting a tri-pod for my camera as well, finally! Certainly things seem to be getting progressively better since I left my old place for the new, even if this is only temporary. Hopefully I'll have a place with some friends by summer of next year. Hopefully before, I really need to start sleeping on a real bed again, instead of a sofa. >.>; But nothing beats a free sofa. Haha. I've been going out a lot lately, trying to broaden my horizons a bit more. I've been spending a lot of time out in the city, getting to know it better, walking a lot more. So far its going well. And I have the motivation of friends to spend that time with me while we aimlessly wander around. I'm trying to get back into working out, but as yet I don't have the equipment nor a place to put it or use it. So, that's probably going to have to wait til I get a real place.

So I think that's all my updates for now. Now I'm off to try and catch some sleep before my search for winter clothes in the morning!
<3
~Em - Aka Kitten - Aka Dragon

Okay so yaay, I have my laptop back. And I even saved all my files from the damaged hard drive, and got it all fixed, so I didn't lose anything! And, I can pick up a really good wireless signal from the new place, so I don't even have to go to random wi-fi spots for internet. Also, I got all my things moved out of the old place and into the new, and sure it kinda sucks it has to all be boxed up in the attic here, but its better than not being able to get to it at all. So I finally have some good coming. I love having my laptop back. And I finally got the poem up that I finished right before my laptop died. Still trying to finish Lost, but its coming along. I have more pictures but I am debating if I want to post them or not. There are a lot of them, but a few shots are too amazing not to share, I think. Especially a few sunset shots I got last night in York, they turned out so great. So maybe a few of those up later. And hopefully some new poems but I am having a problem with writers block again. I swear my poems have a mind of their own, one minute they're spouting from me like I'm a poem-fountain, the next I'm all dried up and out of ideas. Haha. Anyway I should be updating again soon, and I'll be posting stuff as I finish it.
Love you guys
thanks for sticking this out with me
~Em

Okay so yaay, I have my laptop back. And I even saved all my files from the damaged hard drive, and got it all fixed, so I didn't lose anything! And, I can pick up a really good wireless signal from the new place, so I don't even have to go to random wi-fi spots for internet. Also, I got all my things moved out of the old place and into the new, and sure it kinda sucks it has to all be boxed up in the attic here, but its better than not being able to get to it at all. So I finally have some good coming. I love having my laptop back. And I finally got the poem up that I finished right before my laptop died. Still trying to finish Lost, but its coming along. I have more pictures but I am debating if I want to post them or not. There are a lot of them, but a few shots are too amazing not to share, I think. Especially a few sunset shots I got last night in York, they turned out so great. So maybe a few of those up later. And hopefully some new poems but I am having a problem with writers block again. I swear my poems have a mind of their own, one minute they're spouting from me like I'm a poem-fountain, the next I'm all dried up and out of ideas. Haha. Anyway I should be updating again soon, and I'll be posting stuff as I finish it.
Love you guys
thanks for sticking this out with me
~Em

Alright so yaay for more bad news. Not.
I got kicked out. Again. For another stupid reason. This time, the locks got changed. So, I am currently staying with my aunt and god-brother and sister. Fun right? I also still cant find a job. Anyone have any ideas? Anyway, at least I still have internet access. Sometimes. So I can update. My laptop isnt fixed yet but it should be soon. So thats a relief at least. I remembered that I have a contact at walmart so I think I should be able to get a job there. I hope so anyway. I've got new poems forming in my head as I type this, so I think I am going to just post them here, since I have no laptop to save them to. I havent written in so many months, it is driving me nuts. And I am sorta using this journal as a vent. Which is not good but also good. And I am confusing myself. I miss my best friends. I miss my room. I got a new cell phone number so half the people I care about dont even know how to contact me any more.

Regardless, things are starting to look a bit up. I have been scouting for jobs a lot. I think I got a chance at either walmart, or finding nightshift work at some gas station or something. And though a lot of my friends havent really been sticking around too well for me, and a few have even chosen to just ditch me altogether, there are still a couple that are holding out with me and trying to help as much as possible. I think their support is all that is holding me up right now. Cause without knowing someone at least cares, I think I would just have given up a week ago when I got tossed out at 9 pm.

Anyway, look for updates. I'll be working on poems tonight if I have the time after checking all my long-lost sites and emails.

For those of you who had my old celly number and need or want the new one, just message me. this is the only site I check that often any more. So I'll give it to you if you let me know you want it.

Love you all. Thanks for being here, even those of you who just read my poems. Because when you read those, you read a peice of me.

Until next time
~Kitten <3

So hey everyone. You know how everyone always thinks it will be just awesome to turn 18? Well its not that great. So far, since my birthday last week, almost none of my friends have bothered talking to me, I've been trying desperately and still failing to get a job, have been turned down to get a car because I dont have a job, and now have the need to find health and car insurance and all that fun stuff. Oh and I cant even drive jeff's truck anymore, Why? Because I'm not underage any more so no longer on his insurance. What the HELL? Yeah, It sucks. A lot. So dont believe everyone when they tell you that being 18 is oh-so great. Its all lies.

On the bright side, the day after my birthday I got my license. And I actually have other 'adults' to hang out with. Ones that arent just there to annoy me. Other than that, its all down hill. I cant get a job nor a car, so I have no spending money. My laptop is now completely fried, so I'm writing this from the food pantry computer, which takes about a year to load one page. I got used to my new camera but since I have no laptop I can not put the pictures up online. Oh and all my WIP poems, are gonna be gone when my laptop gets fixed. Because I probably need a new motherboard. I dont have them anywhere else. Guess I should have a book for WIP poems too. Hah. Oh well.

Hopefully, I get a call back from the places I applied and get to work somewhere, so I can afford to fix my laptop so I can put all my new stuff online. Otherwise I'm screwed.

And summer here hasnt even been warm. Its still cold enough I have to wear a sweatshirt. How lame.

Okay so that was just a major rant. Anyway, if I get to write down the poems that are stuck in my head with no place to go, I'll have some new stuff up soon. Sorry that it's taking so long. Everything is becoming really hectic.

Hope to update more (good) news soon. I'll be back eventually.
Peace out peoples,
<3